Whole45 – Day 45


I took a little break. From everything, really. On Day 38, from a place of contentment and reflection, I decided to sit outside with a glass of wine on a summer evening because it was exactly what needed. I needed a break from daily blogging because school started and I needed that time with my son.  I needed a break from perfect Paleo because it had begun to skew away from health and towards fixation.

So I missed my goal of 45 days and I realized that a few more days of not blogging were going by. Even when I came back to Whole30 eating, I was still avoiding blogging. And then it occurred to me. I didn’t want to blog again because I was worried what you all would think of me. Shame. Worry. Embarrassment.

That’s when I knew that I absolutely needed to blog because my life and how I go through my journey is not how you might do your own journey – and that’s just fine. While I feared that stopping before the finish line would possibly demotivate someone who is following along and working through their own challenges, I also thought that maybe a different person might totally appreciate that my journey isn’t linear. In the end, a challenge that I post online is still my own to live and learn from.

So a few things to consider:

  • When I posted my results at 30 days, something switched over in my brain and I felt like I was finished. Every day after that I was dragging and pushing and fighting with myself.
  • More than ever, I need to work on balance and moderation. If I have something that falls outside the scope of Paleo, it doesn’t have to derail me for a month. I’m still in it. Because “it” is my life and I’m still working towards my healthiest self.
  • I hurt (rehurt) my hamstring and realized that I kept over-exerting because I was after some end result. I’ve had to take a step back and this is tough sometimes.
  • The days that I was derailed were also hormonally charged and quite likely needed even more carbohydrates. This is something I haven’t really figured out yet.
  • If perfection is my goal, I will never attain it. Get over it.
  • I have work to do around body image, the scale, results, weight as an indicator of health, and why any of this is important to me.

Somehow I got tangled up in the duration of the challenge and doing my results early and having an arbitrary finish line. It totally jacked me up for a minute. What I’m grateful for is that after only a few days, I easily came back to what makes me feel good. I am currently dialed way, way back on any activity while my leg heals. If I’m truly wanting to express health and wellness, then that means I have to back off when my body tells me to. This is a part of the balance that I’m working on.

What I’ve been thinking about lately is a variation on a Whole anything. It’s more about actively and intentionally balancing what I eat, how I move, and the things that I do for self-care in a way that is whole-heartedly less than perfect, but just right for ME. Since perfection is not my goal but deviating from a set of rules derails me, I want to mindfully practice balance. If I have a glass of wine, it doesn’t mean a free-for-all for three days. If I have a dinner out, it doesn’t mean biscuits and gravy the next day. Or maybe it does. I really want to practice tuning in to what is worth it, when it’s worth it, and why.

I went into these 45 days because I wanted to help a friend. I truly hope I gave a little guidance and support along the way. I feel refreshed and reengaged with my healthy habits, which is exciting. Eating like this is so doable. Feeding yourself whole, delicious, real food can transform us from the inside out and it’s totally worth it! And so is a glass of wine and a chocolate bar and a rest day. It’s about finding the balance that works best for you – not for anyone else and I’m grateful that I took the time to explore and experiment.

Thank you so much for coming along on this imperfect journey with me. I really appreciate you. xo








Whole45@45 – Day 31


outside your comfort zoneSometimes I think we all need a little reminder of what can happen once we step outside our comfort zone. We each have so much strength and experience that is available to us, but often it will only appear when we are stretching ourselves beyond what we think we want to do. That was the point of 45 days for me – to see what would happen if I followed a Whole30 format beyond what is typical. I’m pretty confident that I needed the stretch because thirty just felt easy. That’s a part of it too, though. We don’t know until we try and most of the time, our courage, knowledge, expertise, gumption, and skills will show up at the time when we need them, reminding us perhaps that we could have stretched and excelled even earlier, that we have what we need inside of us already. And maybe that will remind us, too, that it’s when we push beyond that we truly learn about ourselves and about what is possible. So go for it!

Day 31 has been a good day. I’ve not been very hungry at all today, which is a little strange but I’ve also been busy. That definitely helps. It’s my longest and busiest day of work so it’s a little easier to get distracted.

In case you are wondering what the physical changes were following thirty days of clean eating without dairy, legumes, sugar, or alcohol, here’s what it looked like for me:

Weight loss: 8 1/2 lbs.

Inches lost: chest – 1″, waist – 1 1/2″, abs – 2 3/4″, hips – 1 1/2″, thigh – 1″

Definition: I’m starting to see some muscle definition come back out, which I really like. Things had gone a bit into hiding. 🙂

Energy: Definitely more steady. I was tired nearly every afternoon before and struggling to stay awake, even when it wasn’t late at night. Now I’m up early, full of a calm energy all day, and capable of staying up later but shutting off the light because I need my sleep!

Sleep: I’ve always been a good sleeper, but I notice that it’s easier than ever to get up at 4am. I sleep about 6 1/2 to 7 hours each night. I’d definitely like to add an hour, but that isn’t possible right now. I usually get that extra 30-60 minutes on the weekend though.

Workouts: Especially compared to how I was feeling at the very beginning of this challenge, my workouts are considerably better. I feel strong and capable, ready to tackle whatever workout I do. I also have this sense that I could really keep going or do any additional physical work that gets set before me.

Skin: I feel like my skin is more luminous. I don’t know how to gauge this except that I find myself leaving the house more frequently without any make-up on at all and appreciating the quality of my skin. I’m sure it has a whole lot to do with drinking tons of water, eating loads of veggies and good fats, and not drinking alcohol.

Body confidence: Perhaps the greatest gift that these past 30 days have given me is the shift in body confidence. Whether it’s the food I’ve been eating or simply the act of committing to my health and well-being, I don’t know. In any case, I’m happy for it because I much prefer acting from a place of self-confidence than shame or guilt or embarrassment.

So there you go. The first thirty days in a nutshell. I don’t know that anything earth-shattering will happen in the next fifteen days, but that’s okay. I’m pretty happy with how much better I feel right now compared to a month ago and I have a feeling it will only get better from here.

What did I eat today?

Breakfast – 2 eggs, zucchini, 1/4 avocado, sauerkraut, 1/2 a plum

Lunch – Zoodles, 1/2 a pork chop, spicy Thai sesame sauce, mango

Dinner – Salmon salad with arugula, spinach, and fresh figs

Post-workout snack: HB egg / chunk of sweet potato / Sriracha sauce / carrots

How did I move today?

Yoga. Then tonight I had the chance to do a full body strength workout. When I got home, it was so beautiful out that I just had to take the dog out for a run so we got in a couple miles. I still wasn’t hungry, but I decided that since my Wednesday dinner is at 4pm and then I worked out, which I don’t always do at night, I should have something to eat. Quick little balanced snack to help everything recover and be ready for another day!

Whole45@45 – Day 30


Well my first thirty days are complete. For most people, this is where the super-strict Paleo might finish but I’ll be waking up tomorrow and continuing on. I think it was important for me to commit to the longer timeframe from the beginning. I don’t feel like I’ve experienced all of the changes and benefits that are in store for me. I feel like there’s more work to be done. This is aside from additional weight loss that I’m hoping for. It’s more about feeling firmly committed to my health and wellness and how significantly food affects that.

I definitely feel better, my skin is brighter, my clothes fit better, and I feel far more stable in my energy and moods, but I want more. I don’t feel like I’ve fully dialed in to what makes my body feel great. I still have some bloating issues from time to time, I don’t feel like I understand the relationship of carbs to my workouts (intellectually, yes, I’m talking personally, what I specifically need to feel  my best), and I know that I still would like an evening cocktail or two. Every night. A little more abstention might go a long way here. And more water.

I plan to share a few more concrete things tomorrow but for now I’ll just celebrate that I’ve successfully completed another Whole30. I don’t feel quite as excited as I thought I would, perhaps because it’s such an interim step, but I’m very grateful that I stepped up and committed to it. I’ve navigated a concert, socializing with friends, emotional days, and eating out. It’s gone by fast so I wonder what the next two weeks will hold.

So what did I eat today?

Breakfast – 2 eggs / Slaw / Sauerkraut / 1/4 avocado

Snack – Turkey roll-up with avocado and bell pepper

Late lunch – Tropical salad with grilled pork chop / 1/2 a peach / 2 fresh figs

Early dinner – Moroccan lamb and cabbage

Snack – 2 more figs. Totally unnecessary but their season is so extremely short and this is the first time I’ve found them here. I love them so I’m taking advantage.

Overall, I ate a ton of fruit this afternoon but it was soooo good. My son and I stopped by the store on the way home for a few things and everything smelled and looked so good that I just had to get a bunch of stuff. Way more fruit than we probably need, but it’s that time of year when I absolutely love everything that’s available and for the rest of the year it just isn’t the same. So I’m indulging. I’ll probably notice it, but hopefully it won’t wake up any major sugar cravings. At least not any cravings that can’t be satisfied by another bite of peach.

How did I move today?

Ran a couple miles at the track while my son practiced football. In between the miles I threw in a few rounds of squats/pulse-squats/squat jumps/burpees. It felt fantastic to be outside running in the evening air!

Whole45@45 – Day 29

be proudMy son started middle school and had a half-day orientation this morning. I picked him up and took him to lunch. It went fine, I was hungry and able to find things to eat. Then he wanted to go to Cold Stone afterwards. Ice cream and I have an intimate relationship. Not only do I love it, but I also love tasting a million different flavors before deciding what my mood is for the day. It’s really not a ploy to get more ice cream (or maybe it is…). For whatever reason, it’s one of those foods that if I find the right combination it can brighten my whole day. I guess that’s a little crazy but it’s just the way it is.

So I didn’t have any. And I didn’t get to satisfy either love – no tasting all the flavors and no ice cream.

I’m kind of sad about it, I guess. At the same time, though, I really feel okay too. I know what it tastes like, really, and sometimes when I have it, the urge still exists for more. Almost as if I hadn’t had it. That sounds really crazy too, I guess. It’s hard to explain, but I think it ties into the concept of cravings being for something other than food, once we really stop to listen. So there’s some feeling that I get when I’m eating ice cream – something playful, I think, youthful, carefree, holiday-esque. Eating ice cream makes me feel that way, only for just an instant and then it’s gone. I’m left with the still present desire for playful, carefree sensations.

I got over it because it wasn’t a craving today. It was suggested by my son and part of me felt like I should have it too because, after all, we were celebrating his first day of middle school. The truth is that he doesn’t need me to have ice cream in order to celebrate his step closer to maturity. I was able to honor and support him in other ways today, ways that were hopefully more memorable than what flavor ice cream I might have had.

What did I eat today?

Breakfast: 2 eggs, zucchini, 1/4 avocado, sauerkraut , 1/2 a plantain

Pre-workout: 2 bites of an RX bar

Lunch: Salad / Steak / Grilled zucchini

Snack: 1/2 plantain, chunk of sweet potato

Super early dinner: Grass-fed beef sausage / Kiwi / Macadamia nuts and 2 dried apricots

Super hungry today even after a good lunch. Couldn’t tell if it was because I needed food or if it was mental. I opted for a little grace and just ate as I felt like my body was telling me. It’s an emotional day for me too and if it takes a few extra carbs to work through the day, then the ones I’m eating will keep me on the healthier spectrum.

And then I ended up having an early dinner because really I kept feeling hungry so the snack merged into dinner. Then suddenly I wasn’t anymore. It was as if a switch had been flipped and I was done.


Down and dirty MetCon with a bunch of barbell work. Worked upper and lower body, got my heartrate way up, and I was dripping when it ended. All good.

Tropical Cucumber Salad with Shrimp

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Have you tried these shrimp yet? They’re so easy to make and they taste great, so what are you waiting for? Pairing these heavily spiced shrimp with simple, clean flavors is a match made in heaven. This cucumber salad is refreshing and combines crunch and tenderness, sweetness and spice. It’s totally delightful on a summer day!

Tropical Cucumber Salad with Shrimp

5-6 large Heavenly Spiced Shrimp

1/2 a cucumber

1/2 a mango

1/4 avocado

A few slivers of sweet onion

1/2 tsp. extra virgin olive oil

3/4 tsp. white balsamic vinegar

4-5 basil leaves, slivered

6-7 mint leaves, slivered

chives, minced

salt to taste


  1. Peel the cucumber and slice into thin semi-circles. Place in a bowl.
  2. Peel and cut the mango into small chunks. Add the mango and thin slices of onion to the bowl along with the avocado pieces.
  3. Drizzle with olive oil and balsamic vinegar. Sprinkle the herbs over the salad with a pinch or two of salt and toss to coat.
  4. Add the shrimp to the salad and indulge!

Serves 1




Whole45@45 – Day 28

Day 28? Are you kidding? Each day that I get a little bit closer I’m just awed by how quickly the time has gone. I’ve done several Whole30s over the years and this is the first time that I’ve had that experience. Usually there’s a point where it’s dragging and I can’t wait for it to be finished, but this time, even with times of cravings, I haven’t once felt it was long. Then again, it’s not over yet…

Today I went for a run out at the reservoir near where I live. We’ve had a lot of rain lately so there were tons of flowers and greenery. It was absolutely gorgeous! I went in a pair of shorts and my sports bra, no tank top over it. This is one of those things that I love to do because it feels great, totally freeing. But at the same time, I have to overcome some internal dialog about whether or not I “should” be in “just” a sports bra, what if other people don’t think I should be in a sports bra, maybe I should wait or not ever or be ashamed or embarrassed. And so on.

Here’s the thing though. When I’m running and I’m in only a sports bra and shorts, I feel kind of amazing – ultra feminine, crazy strong, totally free, and 100% embodying…me.

It’s really a liberating experience that I did for the first time last year and then covered up again because I felt like I didn’t deserve to be out there. Because guess what? When I run, things move and shake a little. But it occurred to me as I was running today that that is how my body is and it doesn’t take away from the strength inside and out that I have or the fact that it just feels great. And that is totally reason enough to do it. I encountered two people out there. One guy had his shirt on, the other didn’t. Both were enjoying their own experience of being physical and immersing themselves in nature. And so was I.

We really just have this one life and I certainly don’t want to waste it. Why wouldn’t you express yourself fully? That’s not to say that everyone needs to be out in their sports bra. It’s just that if there’s something you’ve been wanting to do or wear or say, maybe it’s time to just do the darn thing!

Shine bright. xo

What did I eat today?

Breakfast – 2 hard-boiled eggs, a couple slices of bacon, zoodles

Post-run/Pre-yoga snack/lunch – A small bowl of Moroccan cabbage and lamb / Melon

Mid-day snack/lunch – A handful of macadamia nuts / Turkey, tomato, avocado roll-up / Carrots / Blueberries

Dinner – Sausage / Sweet potato / Garlic and dill green beans / Cherries

Food was sort of random. I ate every meal except dinner standing at the counter, slightly rushed to leave. That isn’t ideal but I also didn’t let it get to me. Sometimes when you eat without taking the time to sit down and savor it, your mind barely registers that you’ve eaten and you can find yourself hungry again in no time. I had things I wanted to do today and, funnily, eating wasn’t high up. Super strange for me.

My son starts middle school tomorrow and wanted me to mention that he had sausages, waffle fries, and peas for dinner. He wanted to make the blog. 🙂 These sausages are pretty cool because they are 100% grass-fed beef with super clean ingredients: Grass-fed beef, salt, celery powder, garlic powder, black pepper, paprika, white pepper, coriander, marjoram, ginger. And that’s it. They’re from Teton Waters Ranch and are delicious!

How did I move today?

I ran for about an hour out at the reservoir. It was beautiful and I’m looking forward to doing it again soon. The hardest part is that on the way out it was mostly downhill but you have to get back too.

And a little bit of yoga.


Whole45@45 – Day 27


A good day today. It started off early at work where I got to train a number of unique, remarkable women. Then I worked my own self into a sweaty puddle, which felt great. I spent some time in the garden, did a bunch of weeding, cleaned the house, and took an afternoon bath. Sometimes I really love a daytime bath – it feels absolutely decadent and indulgent.

I got Nom Nom Paleo’s new cookbook last night and I’m totally hooked. I have been reading it cover to cover and I can’t wait to cook from it. I can’t tell you how many hours of my life have been spent reading cookbooks. I have always loved doing it. I lived for six years in France and bought every cookbook in this particular series and would read them on the metro on the way to work. It helped me learn the language as well as understand how flavors come together. Cookbooks transport me into the flavor combinations and get me inspired to cook and eat healthy. I’m hoping to make a few of the recipes this week so you’ll see them show up, I’m sure.

I feel like my eating is adapted to my activity level and cravings are down. I’m just cruising along and enjoying the journey. It’s a good place to be since Day 30 is right around the corner. I’ll probably do a bit of a recap and then keep on going until the end of the month. I’ve been considering what I will do after and I think at first I’m going to spend some time doing a focused reintroduction of certain foods. I intend to let that process take a while, trying something new and then returning to strict Paleo to tune in to how I feel. I think that by doing it that way, I will also remain mostly doing what I’m doing while loosening the reins just a little bit. Still staying curious, which I think will be key. I’ll keep you posted.

I hope you are all enjoying a wonderful weekend!

What did I eat today?

Breakfast – 2 eggs, cabbage, 1/4 avocado, salsa

Post-workout lunch: Small portion of Moroccan lamb and cabbage / Sweet potato chunk

Second lunch: Chili on slaw / Carrots

Snack: Three jalapeno stuffed olives / Blueberries

Dinner: Scallops with lavender salt / Garlicky zoodles / Bell pepper with avocado smash

Snack: Cherries

Breakfast was early today and dinner was late so I was definitely hungry at various times, but it all felt relevant to my activity. I love that I didn’t feel overly full at any point during the day and, in fact, could probably use a few more starchy carbs.

How did I move today?

MetCon with thrusters, man-makers, lunges, rows, and squat jumps. I was toast when it was done.