Sometimes there are days where nothing dramatic happens. I suppose most days are like that, really, but sometimes I have something on my mind that I want to share. Today is not that day. I guess I wish that I had taken a picture of the cauliflower rice that I had for dinner because it was really tasty and just what I was in the mood for. I think I will fine tune it this weekend and post it because it was something simple to throw together at the last minute.

Still hanging in there, not feeling particularly great and not really sure why. The interesting thing is that I’ve done several Whole30s, I’ve spent more days than not in the past five years eating mostly Paleo, but this time for some reason things are not clicking along the way I’d expect. I still believe that in time I will feel better because I know that eating whole, nutrient dense foods will undoubtedly increase my health, but there might be some tweaking I need to do. Or maybe there are some completely different factors that are at play. In any case, I will keep moving forward.

What did I eat today?

Breakfast – No surprise here… 2 eggs, zucchini, sauerkraut, 1/4 avocado

Post-workout lunch – Spinach salad with grilled pork tenderloin, HB egg, broccoli, cucumber, onion, almonds, vinaigrette / Cherries

Snack – Grilled chicken / Cauliflower / Banana with almond butter

Dinner – A couple bites of chicken, maybe an ounce? / Riced cauliflower with tomatoes, ghee and olive oil

I had a big snack this afternoon so I wasn’t very hungry for dinner. On Fridays I eat breakfast around 6:30 and then didn’t have lunch until 1:00 so I think my hunger was out of whack. Plus no starchy carbs, which was why I was hungry for the banana. Still working on the rhythm.

How did I move today?

HIIT this morning. Then I had a chest day planned but only did a little bit of it. A friend I don’t see very often showed up and we got to chatting. Apparently the Universe thought I needed a break and sometimes connecting with people is more important than pushing yourself in the gym. It’s about balance.

Oh! And yoga!

Shine bright. xo

It was almost like a switch was flipped. Yesterday I had a really big salad for lunch. Then not much later, I had an early dinner. I didn’t eat too much because I wasn’t super hungry, but it was only 3-4 hours after lunch, which seemed soon, and I was ready to eat again. But then I was done.

Although I finished work early and was home at a time when I could have eaten if I’d wanted to, and honestly in the past few months I would have opened a bottle of wine and sat down outside with a snack of some sort, I had zero desire to do any of that. Not hungry. Not craving anything. In fact, before leaving the gym parking lot I tuned in to any sensation to determine whether or not I would need to eat. The reason I did this there was because I didn’t want any other habitual triggers, like pulling into the garage or going into the kitchen, to misinform my decision. It turned out that I simply wasn’t hungry so I committed to that.

Home I settled in to some work I needed to do with a cup of herbal tea and then went to bed when I was done. Again, zero hunger, zero cravings. I woke up this morning feeling different. It’s hard to explain, really, but I just felt in tune and peaceful with it all. I had a cup of tea with collagen (which contains about 5g of protein and has many health benefits) around 6:30 and didn’t eat breakfast until about 7:30. That seems like a long stretch to go without eating, but fasting or intermittent fasting can be good for the system. While it’s not something that I practice intentionally at this point, I’m not at all opposed to leaving a bigger window between eating and particularly at night.

All day today, eating felt easy, nourishing. Even when I had a 1/2 of an Rx bar between tennis and yoga, it was easy to just have a couple bites and then move on – because that was all I wanted. For those of you out there who don’t have issues around food, that probably seems strange to even think about it, but some of us will eat even when we don’t want to. It’s hard. And frustrating.

Anyway, the only thing that I ate today that I’m wondering about was a plantain. I split it up between lunch, which was just post-workout, and dinner, which was post-yoga. I felt like I needed some carbs and I really love plantains, but right after eating it I didn’t feel great. Suddenly a little too full, a little bloated. It’s got me wondering. I’ll make a few sweet potatoes tomorrow instead of plantains to see if I still experience that same feeling or if I need to cut out starchy carbs for a bit. We’ll see.

With food aligned, the rest of my day felt like magic. Today was my day off and it was perfect. I had a leisurely morning outside with coffee and journaling, I got in tons of physical activity which made the day feel fun, and I also got a lot of things done on my to-do list, probably because everything else felt like self-care. It was a good day and I am so incredibly grateful.

I hope you are all feeling centered and loved today. If not, know that I’m sending a few good vibes your way!

Shine bright. xo

What did I eat today?

Breakfast – 3 eggs, garden chard with sautéed mushrooms, 1/4 avocado / Kiwi

Post-workout Lunch – Spinach salad with grilled chicken thighs, onion, walnuts, avocado and a fresh cherry vinaigrette / 1/2 of a plantain

Post-tennis/Pre-yoga snack – 1/2 an Rx bar and a handful of grapes

Dinner – Buffalo chicken slaw with 1/4 avocado / 1/2 a plantain

How did I move?

Big ole leg day today. It felt great! (Except I do still have a hamstring issue that I’m just trying to ignore. Secretly I’m hoping that over time the decrease in inflammation throughout my body will also help it feel better.)

Tennis with my son. I am loving this and wish we had started earlier this summer.

Yoga. Because it’s always a good idea.

I’m sending this now but if I get done with a few things early enough, I might just finish the day with a little evening walk with my dog. I loved this day!

Thanks for coming along. Leave me a comment about how your day has been!

I can’t believe it’s Day 10 already! It seems to have gone really quickly. At the same time, I’m a little frustrated because I don’t feel as great as I thought I would. On previous challenges, by now I would be ticking along, feeling better in my skin, noticing good changes, but this time it just seems to be taking longer. And I don’t really know why.

So this morning I reminded myself that my body will take its own path and its own time. We can’t guarantee the outcome of any endeavor we take on, we can only focus on enjoying the journey. And truthfully, I am. I am liking eating foods that taste good and feel healthy. I am appreciating how it feels to be more centered and focused on the signals my body is sending. And I am still looking forward to where this all will take me.

And that’s really the point, isn’t it? Where we can always allow ourselves to get angry or upset about things not happening quickly enough, maybe the best journeys are the ones that take a little longer to unfold. This time, by making it a 45 day challenge instead of 30, I really feel like I am not in a hurry, that my intention is to be even more solidified in my good habits not so that I can revert to mistreating my body, but so that I can carry these habits even further. That’s the point.

It isn’t about a challenge or losing weight to fit in a dress or any kind of quick-fix. It’s about repairing this relationship with myself and food that continues to be distorted. I want to feel freedom and joy in this area of my life – because that is my nature and my desire. In order to do that, I need to heal. And in order to do THAT, I need time.

So while I may have said a swear word last night when evening rolled around and I was still feeling very far from where I want to be, today I am feeling more forgiving. Gentle. I’m allowing for all of the parts of me to be present and supported and encouraged by the choices that I’m making in each moment. We are such multi-faceted creatures that true healing needs to happen on many more levels than just food. Food is a good place to start, of course, because so much of even how we process things is connected to what we put in our bodies, but we also need to have space to grow and learn, patience for the time it takes to change, and love for the journey.

There is pleasure in the process and it’s worth seeking and exploring. What makes you smile? What makes you feel good inside and out? What entices your taste buds? What lights you up?

Shine bright. xo

So what did I eat today?

Breakfast – 3 eggs, zucchini, 1/4 avocado, kraut (no starchy carb today because I’m wondering if that’s keeping me from feeling great) / Cherries

Lunch – Chicken salad with cauliflower, spinach, snap peas, raisins, cashews, onion / Cherries

Early dinner – Chicken thigh, zoodle sauté, 1/4 avocado / Cherries

Movement

Yoga. It’s always a good idea.

I totally dreamt about eating crackers last night. According to the Whole30 Timeline, I’m a bit early but often around Days 12-15, people dream about eating things that are out of scope and sometimes those cravings follow into the waking hours. It seems the head is working overtime to continue with old habits and revert back to the way things were. I don’t remember ever really passing through this phase before, maybe I did but just wasn’t focused on it, but last night my dream was incredibly vivid. I was also in Paris, which helped.

So far I still haven’t had any desire to eat things that aren’t good for my body and mind. I really just feel completely engaged in fresh, whole foods. It feels so much better. I’ll keep you posted, though, if it happens.

I also want to touch briefly on eliminating toxins from the body. The skin is our largest organ and it is where many toxins come to the surface to be eliminated. I have pretty dry skin so all my life I’ve never really had to deal with pimples very much. Right now I have three little spots on my face that I’m sure are my body clearing things out. The more time I spend eating right and drinking a ton (really) of water, the more my skin will thank me. It’s one of the things that I look forward to with this challenge. Clear, glowing skin tends to come along with all the micronutrients and antioxidants in the veggies and lots of water.

Speaking of veggies and water, one of my zucchini plants is turning out zukes like crazy so I’ll be cooking with them a lot. Hopefully have a recipe coming in the next couple of days if you’re looking for something to do with your bounty!

So what did I eat today?

Breakfast – More of the same because it works for me… 2 Eggs, spinach, tomatoes, basil, 1/4 avocado, 1/2 plantain

Lunch – Spinach salad with chicken, peach, onion, avocado / 1/2 plantain

Snack – Cherries

Dinner – Grilled chicken thighs / Zoodle sauté / Blackberries

And for movement?

HIIT + Abs/Glutes and an evening dog walk.

I taught class today and got my workout done with the group. Normally I would have eaten a small, half-lunch as a pre-workout meal, but I wasn’t really hungry and decided to listen to that. It worked out great! I felt a tiny blood sugar dip around 11:45 but I almost feel as if it were my brain saying I should eat when really I didn’t need to.

I still keep feeling really hungry at lunch and through the afternoon. I’m not sure what that’s about. I’ve been eating fruit (maybe it’s the sugar?) and other things but I’m wondering if I just need to work through it. I’m not sure if those signals are actually hunger or are other habits trying to surface. Tomorrow I’m going to focus on working through some of the urges to see if it will calm the heck down.

I’m feeling pretty bloated today which could definitely still be due to the shift in eating. The Whole30 Timeline mentions that these couple days can sometimes make your pants feel tighter and cause a little distress. Just the work going on internally to adjust and hopefully it will go away in the not-too-distant-future.

So what did I eat today?

Breakfast – Eggs, spinach, avocado, kraut, plantain

Lunch – Salad with celery, roasted broccoli, chicken, onion, pickles, toasted sliced almonds, red wine vinaigrette / cherries

Snack – Raspberries, chicken, sweet potato, cashews

Dinner – Pork tenderloin / Roasted cauliflower / Cucumber-Avo salad

What did I do for exercise?

Tough shoulder workout with a few hill sprints added in and then I played tennis with my son. I think it’s important to move in ways that are not just gym workouts but that add joy to life. It was our first time and it’s a good thing that the courts were empty. We might have had to chase a few. 🙂